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- I find it hard to talk on a telephone. I do not like Skype. My mom and my in laws have to virtually beg me to spend a few minutes in conversation in this medium. People ask me why and the only possible explanation that I can give is this: it lacks soul connection and I cannot see the other person's body language. Also it is impossible to catch up on the everyday from the past week in a few minutes. Physical presence is required to be within a moment.
- I find it hard to make time to make changes. I read a lot and I talk to people often. These two activities are creative fuel to me and rarely do I leave a conversation or a book without an idea. These ideas need dedicated time for planning and implementation though. I find this time scarce and before I know it, the idea, challenge or concept gets shelved.
- I find it hard to implement actions and ideas. I am very strategic. I prefer getting people who are really good at something to do it.
- I find it hard to focus. Too much interests me. I get bored easily, too easily for my liking. I jump from one activity to the next and I take on too much at any given point in time. I never allow myself the time to master anything. I am working on this but I find it painful. This is one project that is providing direction.
- I find it hard to keep up to date with email, twitter messages, blog comments and ringing telephones. I enjoy these mediums of communication but I wish that I could determine the speed at which they accelerated into and out of my life.
- I find photography hard. The challenge and science of light keeps surprising me with yet another undiscovered aspect of its self. This is why I started my 365 project.
- I find writing hard. It can always be better.
- I find that trying to understand the Bible is harder than spending time in God's presence. The one brings questions, the other answers.
- I find business hard. I never arrive but I am always starting. Every day, I learn and it feels as if I am taking my very first tentative step.
- I find it hard to tell people what I do because I do many different things. But actually why do people ask this question and not: "Who are you?" instead?
- I find it hard not to search a person's soul out. Don't give me surface matters. Remember I get bored quickly.
- I find it hard not to learn life lessons in everyday matters. I see spiritual significance in very mundane matters.
Can you relate to some of these? What do you find hard to do?
29 comments:
I relate to all of these.
The phone, text, email, and all other impersonal interaction mediums cause me irritation; I do, however participate.
Focus and initiative, after an idea is birthed, is very difficult.
Writing is hard, yet I am constantly drawn to the challenge.
Love your thought of Bible study bringing questions and practicing presence bringing answers, simply beautiful.
I rather ponder and dig into someone's story than to talk weather or sports.
I am very scattered as well, the "who are you?" question fits much better. I work three jobs outside of my main interests, and have three children besides, so I am constantly confused by the "what do you do?" question.
I agree, I agree.
Just thought, I'd let you know you are not alone.
Love your blog, your photography, your poetry, your passion. Keep on walking.
What is skype?
- I find it hard to do something (like a project) that requires specific actions and things on specific days--for if I neglect one, then I swirl around in the waters of failure. I don't like it there.
- I find it hard that I cannot reach through this screen and hold a hand in prayer or wipe a tear.
- I find I cannot sit still for long, for it is hard.
- I find I cannot let my mind rest, for it is harder yet.
Blessings.
reading your thoughts requires a deal of pondering ... and yes, that is hard
i think we could run hand in hand through the fields completely agreeing with what we find hard....and then lay down and count the butterflies above us....because we get bored easily and that's just what we'd do next.....
Daniel no wonder I enjoy your company so much...
Thank you for relating. It's comforting to know that it's not only crazy old me who thinks this way.
Darlene the fact that you do not know what Skype is makes me smile. I knew we needed to be friends for a reason : )
Susan... didn't mean to add a hard thing to list. As my dad used to say: "Don't wonder too far, you might get lost."
xox
I find it hard to believe you find writing and photography HARD... On the other hand, things that pose no challenge are not worth doing. No surprise your list is so long because you fill your life with challenges.
I find it hard at the to understand my kids' relationship with me - they love being away from me at friends and yet when they are at home they are always all over me - Needing time out or space is foreign to them.
I find prioritising exceptionally difficult... I don't have time to do the things I want to do most but I always seem to rather do the favourite things that I don't have time for because I know I will force myself to finish everything anyway.
I find it hard to recycle!Such a virtuous idea with so much effort involved and no visible achievement.
I find it hard to speak to superficial people.
I find my husband hard to understand and impossible to live without!
I find it very very hard that you are so far away!
Not only do I find it hard to talk on the phone, i intensly dislike it. I have project ADHD as well, but I do be ieve that reading God's word is spending time in His presence. Oh, and as for Twitter, I just signed up, and I'm considering resigning my account. Just another thing to have to keep up with.
Claire,
I wholeheartedly agree with you on lots of those hard to do things.
The scattered mind.
Taking on too many projects and having half-done things dangling in closets, behind furniture, all around the house.
It's hard to write--for me, but you do it so well!
And I definitely think we should be asking people more about who they are than what they do. Was just reading that in "Sacred Romance" by Brent Curtis and John Eldredge.
You are doing well in conquering your hard to do list.
Blessings,
Janis
Claire- This is a very open-hearted type of blog post - and it must have taken some good solid reflection time to come up with this. I think I would be depressed if I started a list like this! It seems that the older I get, the more things come hard, and the less I want to discipline myself to do them. I just want easy any more.
I agree that it is hard to keep up with social media - comments and blogging and all. I look at others and always feel like I am not doing enough to really be part of the scene, to keep it going.
Thanks for sharing - it's inspiring in some odd way.
Shoot, sorry about Skype. ; - )
I like it better than nothing... :)
I find it hard to focus. Too much interests me. I get bored easily, too easily for my liking. I jump from one activity to the next and I take on too much at any given point in time. I never allow myself the time to master anything.
I really identify with that. I'm working on it, too.
And the photography and the writing? They may be difficult for you but you make them look easy!
Claire,
I agree with the camel. This must have been a bit shattering to do. Bless you for it, though. This vulnerability makes me want to embrace you. I promise not to skype though :)
On a side note, I find skype fun to use when calling my boys downstairs for dinner. They think it's hilarious.
I am just nodding at you. Yes. Just yes. I could have written this post.
And on a side note, I just love your photography. You open up a world to me that is dreams and true. Keep learning it - I LOVE what you see!
The last line sums up what I love about your life, your heart, your art. :) Saying no to many good things allows you to say yes to the best things. Go girl. Unapologetically.
cool
claire . some of these surprise me but also I can relate to them as well..
i wish i could write . form ideas that are useful...just to name a couple..
I so agree with asking people who they are as oppossed to what they do...I think that is THE most important question...
For you to find photography hard...that amazes me! Your photo's show an insight...tell a story and make you want to find out just a lil bit more...I like that
beth, yes lets go running. and then we can find an old barn along the way?
bev, you know me too well. i look for challenges all over the place. and then you and calvin and my mom are usually waiting in the wings to pick up the pieces. thank you for that.
erin, yes its about that quiet time with God and when things start interfering there, i start cutting back. i must admit though, that all the activities i listed in this post are ones that make me see God more clearly.
janis, thank you for the encouragement.
bradley, the fact that you find comfort in this post means a lot to me. whilst writing it, i reflected on the leadership article which you wrote a while back on your own blog. it was about life lessons and your journey thus far.
amy, it means much that you can relate.
laura... you are a stunner of a mom! i just love the fact that you skype your children to dinner. that is cool! a mom who knows and works technology to her advantage : ) i like...as for writing the list, it actually wasn't that hard. i know these things about myself. i just needed to review them. lay my progress before God again.
kelly, your eyes teach me to see. thank you for the gift of you.
kathleen your card arrived in the post today... the one about "she". thank you for believing in me.
elk, now you surprise me. you do write...so well. you write simply and that makes it so effective.please keep on writing, just as you do.
jakki, thank you for your comment. it gives me insight into areas that i need to build on.
I find it hard to not live in the meat of life. If I have to live in work or meetings or even simple interactions I lose a piece of myself. I am terribly protective of my time to be.
I am not religious per se, as I think you know, but I see great value in the fact that you find answers living in god, instead of studying in a book. I do believe, god, or whatever anyone wants to name it, truth perhaps, perhaps beauty resides all around us. Even in the mundane. Maybe even especially in the ordinary. It is just that, that precious time and space that I need, to pay witness. I think perhaps, you too.
Hi Claire. So good to see/read you again.
xo
erin
Your PhotoPlay prompt looks good over at HighCallingBlogs.com, Claire. I'm interested to see what folks submit.
Claire! I am so sorry I haven't been by to visit this new blog yet! I love it, and I've been missing your photography. I love this post...I can really relate to your photography challenge. It is something that I love and also wrestle with, because I want to understand it better. I just absolutely love your light project as well.
And I am the same way--I have so many things that interest me that I sometimes feel pulled in a million different directions. How are we supposed to pursue EVERYTHING? It's hard to find balance and thus hard to find fulfillment, because I'm always left wanting more, wanting to experience more, wanting to feel more satisfied and each area but always falling short. Anyway. I know this post is a few days old but still, I wanted to comment. :) I will be stopping by much more often! <3
This is re:PhotoPlay on Higher Calling. One of my egg photos. Hope you like it.
http://s255.photobucket.com/albums/hh128/ktcwmom/?action=view¤t=050.jpg
Erin
I relate to SO much of this Claire, as I suspect you already know from discussions we've had before. I feel forced to communicate in media that do not suit me because of the choices I've made to be far from many of those I love but it is hard, always hard. And as for the who are you? vs. what do you do? question - I'm sometimes interested in what people do but only as it relates to who they are, not as a definition of who they are, and I hate it when people pigeon-hole me when they discover what I do or assume that's all there is to me. Not that the who are you? question is really any easier for me to answer, probably less so. But I am drawn to complexity and I like it when people demonstrate that they are too by being prepared to open that door and peek through it. I find it hard to swim on the surface for too long. I'm a deep-diver. For better or for worse.
My try at Photoplay.
http://mom2six-treasures.blogspot.com/2010/05/eyes-on.html
And I so like this line..."I find it hard not to learn life lessons in everyday matters. I see spiritual significance in very mundane matters."
good day claire..my piece for Photo Play
strong thread
you are a blessing friend..
I played with my camera this morning...tried the noise reduction settings, and also increased my aperture. I still need much study and experimentation, but this helps me learn, Claire. Thank you!
http://lauraboggess.blogspot.com/2010/05/what-i-want.html
Thanks for another PhotoPlay. Fun, as usual. Here's mine:
http://mybigthree.highcallingblogs.com/2010/05/12/mustard-seeds/
Keeping up with communication is hard for me, too. But I so want to! That I cannot have the depth of relationship I want with everyone will be a lifelong adjustment for me.
Late, but here... :)
http://seedlingsinstone.blogspot.com/2010/05/freeing-myself-from-distraction.html
I'm late too...the simple is all I seem to find ;)
http://jezamama.blogspot.com/2010/05/purple.html
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